Each day it seems, we are hit with a new blow. I feel like everything is against us. Not only Canaan, but especially the missionaries. We struggle to understand the culture here sometimes, but we do not judge them for who they are, what they believe or how they live. However we continue to feel their judgements every day. Here lately more frequently. We can't help that we have grown up in America, that we were definitely blessed throughout our lives. God has put me here for a reason, and I have chosen to accept being here and living this way. However we cannot help but miss certain luxuries, such as running water and air conditioning; missing family and friends. I can also not apologize for missing these things. Yet they blatantly judge us.
We often go down to the beach, even just in the evenings at times, to enjoy certain things which are normal to us. We have a friend who lives there and he let us spend the afternoon in his air-conditioned apartment watching television. Something we really enjoyed! We had a rough morning and spending time there put us all in better spirits.
That small act, us enjoying air-conditioning, caused more issues. Caused another blow. Proving some people here do not understand us and clearly choose to not even try.
It's disheartening. I love this country and these people. I am here because I choose it, because God chose it. I refuse to let these people push me away. That doesn't make it easy though. I know in my heart this is where I am supposed to be.
I believe we have all just been so shattered lately. I hope we can all just turn to God in this time and fight this together. How can we ask others to pray for us, when we are unwilling to pray for each other here. We need more than ever to come together, and fight these evils, because it is clear at this point, they are winning....
"Oh, give me back my joy again; you have broken me- now let me rejoice." Psalm 51:8
"Life is either a daring adventure, or nothing" -Helen Keller
1 comment:
I saw the comment on your FB page and think that there is a great misinterpretation due to the language barrier. That person (I won't sttop to call names!)does not understand that your comments did not mean that you were saying that all of Haiti does not have air- conditioning or refigeratro, etc., only that where you live doesn't have them in your little house. You only have power during certain hours of the day. You weren't saying that you don't like Haiti because you don't have all the conveniences of home. Everyone here knows that it breaks your heart to see people go hungry or have no place to sleep. We are working like crazy here in the United States to get donations to help the Haitian people. We are working in the background to support what you missionaries are doing there. All of us who read your FB page and your blog know what you mean; we know you aren't belittling the country of Haiti. If he would like to come help with the mission here, I would love to offer him a place to stay! He doesn't realize that you are homesick and that in our country we have freedom of speech to say what we miss and love about our country. Has he not read how joyous you were to return to Haiti and how much you love his country; that you are returning over and over to help HIS people? My God is a loving God and does not want His children to condemn or judge others, especially ones who are doing the work He has called them to do. Maybe many missionaries are discouraged by people like this man and this is why it is so hard to get people to volunteer and to donate. You missionaries at Canaan, hold your heads high and know that you are doing a wonderful thing...these children are the future of Haiti. I love you! MM Sorry I got on my soap box!
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